My Lamentations

"...When laughter first manifests itself in the infant, it is an incipient cry...What if everything in the world were a misunderstanding, what if laughter were really tears?" -Soren Kierkegaard

Dig Deep

         I've been thinking lately about a lot of things.  I want to share with you one of the things that's been on my heart.  All Christians have this question, "What would God do?"  It is a question about the very character of God.  The other day I was at my college's BSU when a young man got up to read a Scripture verse and share a small devotion.  He started off with the same Scripture that I posted two days ago, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.  Now, after he read this he turned to 1 John 4:8 which states, "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love."  Then he re-read 1 Corithians 13: 4-8 but he replaced the word love with God.  You see; I have for most of my Christian walk, struggled with the  concept of the character of God.  Now I knew about these two verses, but I was never able to make a mental connection.  The answer to my delimia was right in front of me all along.  "God is patient, God is kind, God is not easily angered...."  You see if love is all that 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 says it is, and if God is love according to 1 John 4:8, than we must conclude that God is everything that love is.  Isnt' that awesome!  So next time you find yourself thinking, "What would God do?" or "What is God like?"  remember that God is love, and then remember what the Apostle Paul said love was.  "Love is patient, Love is kind, Love isn't easily angered....."

In Christ,

theweeper

posted by: theweeper at February 24, 2006 15:29 | link | comments (1) |

It's been awhile...

I thought that since it has been the "month of love and valentines" a entry about dating would be quite appropriate.  I have a yahoo account and for a month I have been keeping track of the dating emails I got.  I am currently at 199 dating emails.  These range from the average Christian dating site to email titles that I wouldn't utter even by myself.  I would have said that since I am not in the knowhow that maybe I am misguided in my thoughts on the world's view on love.  However, since I get all these emails and I haven't asked for a single one and the fact that most are telling me that they can get me laid, well, I think the world could use a reality check on love.  The Apostle Paul dealt with this topic in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.  "Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; (5) does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; (6) does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; (7) bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (8) Love never fails....

    You see according to the world's standerds the meaning of "love" is getting someone who will spoil you and, to some, have sex with you whenever you want it.  The world's view of love is actually the definition of another word called "lust".  The Bible teaches that God is the creator of all good things and that the devil imitates God by creating evil.  While Satan doesn't have the same power as God, he can make false copies of everything God makes.  A way to know if you are in love or lust is the method in which you reached the feelings have.  You see lust is a thing of the flesh and it takes hold of you fast.  It is the epitamy of "love at first sight".  Love, by what I have learned and observed, takes time to grow.  Sometimes it dies a quick death, but once it takes root it will blossom.  A good illistration can be found with flowers.  The flower that springs up fast without much root support will often die a quick and painful death.  It is also not as beautiful as it could be.  The flower that takes its time and gets a good root system and then grows is the most beautiful flower.  The soil is an illustration of how well you know a person.  You see lust is like the flower that springs up fast without much of a hold in the soil.  It dies fast because it has nothing to support it.  Love is like the flower that takes its time and gets a good hold in the soil.  It takes a while to grow, but the better the root is in the ground the more beautiful and stronger it grows.  Love grows as you get to know a person. 

I'll leave you with one of my favourite quotes.  I'm not sure who it is by, but here it is.  "If you love something let it go.  If it returns it's yours forever."

See ya'll tomorrow for some more good stuff!

theweeper.

posted by: theweeper at February 22, 2006 18:11 | link | comments |

Natural Highlights

Check this out!  A friend sent me this and I thought it might brighten your day!theweeper.

It Does Make You Feel Good,

especially the thought at the end #45


1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail.

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.

14. A good conversation.

15. The beach

16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself.


18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

23. Laughing at an inside joke



24. Friends.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.

27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

29 Playing with a new puppy.

30. Having someone play with your hair.

31. Sweet dreams.

32. Hot chocolate.

33. Road trips with friends.

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.



36. Making chocolate chip cookies.

37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.

38 Holding hands with someone you care about.

39. Running into an old friend and realizing
that some things (good or bad) never change.

40. Watching the _______expression on someone's face
as they open a much desired present from you.

41. Watching the sunrise.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and
being grateful for another beautiful day.

43 Knowing that somebody misses you.

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

45. Knowing you've done the right thing,
no matter what other people think.

As I read this email I thought to myself, "These people are on to something."  You know that in our hectic day to day lives we remember all the bad things in life, but sometimes overlook the good things.  Let this email that I received be a reminder to you to not overlook the little blessings that come in our lives.  God blesses us each and everyday, but most of us never stop to think about these blessings.  Blessings like a beautiful sunrise or sunset, good friends and fellowship, clothes on our backs, etc...  The next section reminds us of this...

Even though I clutch my blanket and growl

posted by: theweeper at February 12, 2006 18:24 | link | comments (6) |

How it began continued...

I know it has been a while since I posted anything, but I have good reason for that.  Firstly I would like to point out that I went home this weekend and packed what was left of my earthly belongings there into five to six neat little boxes.  My family is looking to moving to a small town called Lemont Missouri.  If this comes through I think my family will be a lot better off in the long run.  The only bad thing about the move is that it will prohibit me from really being able to go home often.  Right now I only go home three to four times a semester because of my schedule.  Now I will be required to travel an extra hour to an hour and a half.  Anyways, this isn't too bad although I will miss my old home. 

         Now, I wish to do some lamenting on something besides myself.  There is a comment that was posted by J Robbins on the post "How it began".  In this post she mentions some things that she is struggling with in her life.  I can completely relate to her.  As a young child I struggled with depression in my life from second grade all the way to fifth grade.  This wasn't your adverage small time depression, but it was bad.  I was on the strongest medicine available and I was diagnosed with hallucinations due to my severe depression.  I can offer only encouragement to J Robbins because, while I'm not a doctor and I don't want to play doctor because that would not be right, I myself don't understand everything that affects a person.  I encourage you to continue praying in your time of struggle.  You won't believe what the power of prayer can do to the demon of depression.  I also encourage you to seek help from your close friends.  Have them monitor you and if anything changes, as if you get worse, immediately seek professional help.  My depression caused me to be suicidal.  If there is anyone out there that is dealing with depression or even dealing with suicidal thoughts you don't have to listen to what your body and mind are telling you.  You are loved by someone!  Jesus Christ came to this earth two thousand years ago to save us.  He not only saves us, but He extends a helping hand to us in our time of need.  Pray for His help and you can beat this.  Again seek the help of friends and family.  They won't hate you, be scared of you, or even condemn you, but rather they will (and should) seek to help you in anyway possible.  If all else fails or you think you may be getting worse seek professional help.  Until next time.

              theweeper

posted by: theweeper at February 06, 2006 21:12 | link | comments |

This needs your urgent attention

  I am posting a picture tonight of a little nine year old girl whose name is Penny Brown.  She has been missing for over two weeks and her father is desperate for any information we can get on her whereabouts.  I will post the email address of her father on my links and the picture will be either in this blog or in my archives.  Please don't just discard this blog , but send this information to all your friends and post it on your blog.  I am going to email the father for more information.  I will post it as soon as I get it.  Again Please, I beg you for her father and for the cause of Christ do what youcan to help reunite this father and daughter again.

                                    Do this for Penny,

                                          theweeper 

posted by: theweeper at February 03, 2006 22:48 | link | comments |

How it began

             Yesterday I told you I would give you some background on why I started this blog.  This blog is the outcry of my heart because of the last few months.  It seems that my world has been falling down around me lately.  First, my girlfriend of almost six months calls me on Christmas Day crying saying she wants to break up with me because of something she's done.  I talk her out of it and in a week I notice she has changed in the way she talks to me over the phone.  I asked her what was wrong and she and I talked and then broke up.  This was hard for me because I was acutally thinking seriously about asking her to marry me in  a month or two.  Then my dad got fired from his job a couple of weeks later and we are told we have 30 days to get out of our house.  So I'm dealing with all of this and the fact that my girlfriend attended college with me (she withdrew and went home to Tennessee on Monday) didn't help things much.  No offense to any females reading this blog, but you all can be very confusing.  You see my girlfriend contacted me more and tried to spend more time with me outside of our relationship than it seemed inside of our relationship.  In the relationship it felt like I was the only one really trying to keep the relationship together.  I know that this isn't true, but that is the way it felt.  Anyways, so this is kindof what I have been dealing with lately.  And now that I have spent my and your time lamenting over this I want to give you the Veggietales version of what I have learned in the past couple of months.  First of all I would like to bring your attention to what the Apostle Paul said in Philippians 4:11.  "Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content; (NKJV)".  I always thought that I understood that verse, but I know now what Paul really meant in that comment.  He was a single man who was hated by all his former friends for converting to Christianity.  He has had more evil done to him than any other Apostle I have studied.  He knew what it meant to let the "joy of the Lord" be his strength.  As I dealt with and continue to deal with these problems I have found that by concentrating on God and letting His joy be my strenght then I able to be content. 

                  I have also discovered what true faith walks hand-in-hand with peace.  In order to be able to have the kind of faith in which you don't worry about what is going on in your life you have to first have the peace of mind that only comes from God.  Once you have this peace you can truely walk in faith and trust.  Well, it is late and my roomates are trying to go to bed, but look tomorrow for another post and some new editions to my links.  If you have anything that you would like to add please feel free to comment.

the weeper

posted by: theweeper at February 01, 2006 22:31 | link | comments (2) |